i m not strong enough

feel like wanna 2 gip up 4 the battle! it seemed tat i cant cope wif the stress. everytime when i c my ca marks, felt like sendiri veri teruk. every1 of us attending the same lectures, same tutorials, same educational level but howcum ppl can do so well but i cant? ppl can conc in their study, and have the initiative 2 do their own revision but howcum i cant? feell veri sad rite now, wat 2 do? still got 3 more papers to go! but still hav no mood 2 study. i thought i can overcum tis feeling but actually i m not strong enough 2 do so. but i felt very thankful 2 my family n my frien all the way giving me support n help when i need, a place for me 2 talk to when i m down. but feel like wanna 2 cry now......

Exam

i thought i hav mood 2 write something but it seemed tat i m wrong. i did badly for my exam i noe, though ppl may think that i m juz joking wif them. but seriously i never felt so badly in my entire life. 1st time would feel tat wanna cry becoz of an exam. i dunno y after cuming here, everytime during ca, though i did study, but when i looked through the test paper, i couldnt recall anything!! totally blank. a friend of mine told me tat mayb i didnt study enough, but i had spent some weeks for a subject n flip through the notes second time b4 my exam and during my revision, at least i can recall something. but howcum everytime when having a test, i cant remember anything, at least something. it seemed tat i hav onli short term memory. i can forget anything easily. wat should i do? i spent the whole evening chatting wif a friend. she told me that mayb it is a time for me 2 reflect wat i hav done for the past 3 months. ya, when i reflect wat i hav done for these days, i think i deserve 2 get wat i should rather than i wat i think i should. i felt rather soli for my family, spending money for me 2 study but i juz waste it. hopefully i can gain bac my spirit b4 nex sem.

希望电话再次响起

我喜欢发短讯

期待每一次

电话因每次回复而响起

但

每当电话响起

打开里头的信息

发现并不是如所期待

我真的不再希望

电话会再次响起

其实

我知道

我还是希望

电话再次响起

风筝

风筝

当握在手中那一刻

是否曾想过

尽头飞着那一端

风筝

多么想从人们的手中溜走

但

我们只会

规律性的收放自如

对它而言多么的

残酷

奈何

或在当下

不是如此

能顺心

能如意吗