Exam

i thought i hav mood 2 write something but it seemed tat i m wrong. i did badly for my exam i noe, though ppl may think that i m juz joking wif them. but seriously i never felt so badly in my entire life. 1st time would feel tat wanna cry becoz of an exam. i dunno y after cuming here, everytime during ca, though i did study, but when i looked through the test paper, i couldnt recall anything!! totally blank. a friend of mine told me tat mayb i didnt study enough, but i had spent some weeks for a subject n flip through the notes second time b4 my exam and during my revision, at least i can recall something. but howcum everytime when having a test, i cant remember anything, at least something. it seemed tat i hav onli short term memory. i can forget anything easily. wat should i do? i spent the whole evening chatting wif a friend. she told me that mayb it is a time for me 2 reflect wat i hav done for the past 3 months. ya, when i reflect wat i hav done for these days, i think i deserve 2 get wat i should rather than i wat i think i should. i felt rather soli for my family, spending money for me 2 study but i juz waste it. hopefully i can gain bac my spirit b4 nex sem.